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Isn’t it weird how we basically have an endless mental conversation with ourselves?
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I should start my fitblr again.
Right. Shall go get started.
Today will not have exercise because I’m sick and doubling over if I stand for too long ugh
So I should just make food logs and plans and dimensions
Kbai
FITBLR.
guise
i’m bacccck. lol.
not exactly, but i’m trying to start exercising and eating properly again. from today.
today’s more or less done, actually.
200 skips, 20 deadlifts, 40 crunches, 3 failed reverse curls. haiz.
but it’s okay~ i’m just starting out.
should i run later? hmm.
for now i’ll go take my dimensions and evaluate myself as to what to do.
aigooo. wish me the best.
and so i was scrolling through thinspo things, and found this, so why not?
Age: 15
Height: 5’5
Heaviest Weight: 110
Lowest Weight: this year, or ten year ago? okay i’m being stupid. 99.
Current Weight: 110. super DX
Ultimate Goal Weight: 77. or at least sub-88.
Favorite Diet Food: eggs make me feel healthier, but okay fine. yoghurt.
Favorite Binge food: fried stuff. sweet stuff.
Favorite exercise: dancing, spazzing, probably skipping.
What makes you slip up: food, and feels.
What makes you strong: recognition
What do you see when you look in the mirror: depressing arm/leg girths, and a stomach.
Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: in the middle
Are you depressed: no
Are you a virgin: yes
Ever tried to commit suicide: no
Ever cut yourself: no
Ever been to a psychologist: thinking of going
Lost weight: attempted to, but results were based on looks
Gained weight: yes, like now.
Do you drink: no
Do you smoke: no
weed: no
cigarettes: no
Do you take drugs: no
Does your weight affect your mood: yes
Do you weigh yourself daily: no
Have you ever fasted: no
Have you ever skipped a meal: yes lol
Have you ever thrown up food: nope
I am—
[ ] Anorexic
[ ] EDNOS
[ ] Bulimic
[ ] Self diagnosis
[ ] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100 lbs
[ ] starving myself
[ ] vegan
[ ] vegetarian
People…
[ ] ask if i’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say i’m skinny (i’m not, kays?)
[ ] say i’m ugly
[ ] talk about me behind my back
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say i eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[ ] don’t know i’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me
I wish…
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself better
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what i am
[x] I was prettier
[x] I could disappear
I love…
[ ] being hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
Appearances…
[ ] I’m shorter than 5’4
[x] think i’m ugly
[ ] have self made scars
[ ] have a tattoo
[x] wear glasses
[ ] been told i’m pretty by a stranger
[ ] have more than 2 piercings
[ ] have piercings besides my ears
[x] have freckles
[ ] am petite
I hate…
[ ]when people stare
[ ] being asked questions (i can just blurt out my life story, lol)
[ ] having to eat
[ ] being single
[ ] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[ ] fat people
I need (want)…
[ ] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[x] gym membership
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[x] to lose 20 lbs
[x] to lose 10 lb
This is exactly why it’s so important to have a good relationship with ourselves.
foooooood
hungry.
last ate at 8am.
ikr.
might be a good thing though
eat more often, eat smaller meals
if i eat now, i might need to eat again at 2-3pm :/
welp. i’m more active now, so i guess this should be expected.
fooooooood
WATER.
i’ve taken to having the drinking habits of a diabetic.
not good.
progressively increasing water intake, i guess.
going out to buy shelves. shall finish 600 ml by the time i get back.
bye
Mental health should be checked yearly along with physical health or twice like the dentist.
Fairytale inspired ask
- Snow White: Do you consider yourself pretty?
- Sleeping Beauty: How many hours do you sleep each night?
- Cinderella: Do you have a curfew?
- Rapunzel: Do you like being outside?
- Little Red Riding Hood: Do you trust strangers easily?
- The Wolf and the seven little Goats: Are you easily fooled?
- The Seven Ravens: Do you have any siblings? How is your relationship to them?
- Beauty and the Beast: What makes a person beautiful in your eyes?
- The Little Mermaid: What sacrifice would you bring for love?
- The Frog Prince: What do you find disgusting?
- Jack and the Beanstalk: What plants are in your room?
- Puss in Boots: Do you have a pet? Do you want one?
- Rumpelstiltskin: What is the meaning of your url?
- Bluebeard: Name one character flaw!
- Pinocchio: What is your greatest wish?
- Peter Pan: What is your (mental) age?
- The Star Money: What is your most prized possesion?
- Golden Mary and Pitch Mary: Are you more of a lazy person or do you work hard?
- The Snow Queen: Who is your best friend and what would you do for them?
- Godfather Death: What qualities do you think make a good parent?
- The Twelve Dancing Princesses: Do you like to go on parties?
- The Emperor's New Clothes: Do you care much about your clothes?
- The Valiant Little Tailor: Do you think of yourself as brave?
- The Princess and the Pea: Are you a squeamish person?
hdjdjsjkk my mum works in retail and one of her coworkers is autistic & mostly doesnt talk unless he has to but yesterday he went out of his way to cross through the crowds of xmas shoppers and dodge a train of trolleys to go up to my mum, gesture to the crowds and say “michelle. i am losing the will to live”